Wednesday, March 5, 2014


I am flying to Wisconsin. I am flying to Wisconsin in March..... When it is a balmy 13 degrees... Which is 8 degrees warmer than it was yesterday. Lol. But this has nothing to do with hope..... Ha!

I just read an article on hope. It says that we have a shortage of hope. Hope is not to be mistaken for optimism which is the general feeling that things will work out well. Hope is a game plan. It is a plan for good things to come your way and for how you are going to get there.

We can't just dream about good things happening.... We have to learn ways to MAKE good things happen. And then have confidence in your ability to make it happen. Whether it's make a new friend out of that new girl at the gym, find that new job that makes your days worthwhile or get over that person who brings you nothing but pain and heartache.

Is hope directly tied to self esteem and believing in yourself? And if it is.... How do we work on our own self esteem? Because really.... People can tell you that you are capable but if YOU don't believe it.... It won't happen.

I think I have always been optimistic but I'm not sure I've been hopeful. I hold onto things for too long which hinders my ability to set up my game plan for tomorrow. I keep talking about doing a vision board for things I want in my life in one year, five years and so on. I suppose my lack of hope has prevented me from doing it. That and what if I do it and then none of things on it come true? So if I just don't do it.... Then I won't have things to not come true.... Follow me?

Boy is that self defeatist. ��.

My past does not dictate who I am or who I am going to be! My New Years resolution was to be authentic to me and what I want. I am doing ok with that. I have had to stop myself though and say.... No! That's NOT what you really want or think. Say what you really think. I don't do it all the time though as it's not natural to me and my people pleasing.

So.... I am hopeful for the future... And now I am going to put together my game plan. :). Anyone wanna be hopeful with me?

Friday, February 14, 2014

It's really Valentines day?

Where is the time going?  Oh right... in week by week increments.  :)  I cannot believe that it's February 14th and the last time I posted was about my cruise.  I haven't even covered Christmas. 

Truthfully, I haven't even downloaded the pictures from Christmas yet.  Time seems to get away from me.  On the weeks I have my kids... life involves a tight schedule from sunup to sundown....  wake up, get ready, get the kids ready, out the door.  Work all day.  Slide in Crossfit...  pick up kids.  Dinner, homework, bath, tv and bed.  By the time I get those two monkey's into bed and asleep...  I'm exhausted.  Wash, rinse repeat.  :) 

The weeks that I don't have my kids... I try to schedule things that I can't get done with them.  So....  life is a bit hectic right now.  I think it may settle down but then again...  something new will upset the apple cart and I'll revamp again.  :)  I guess that's the circle of life though. 

My dad is semi retired now... which means he comes in one hour later than he used to.  He's even walking to work three days out of the week.  I have officially (as of last saturday) moved into his office.  It's nothing more than symbolic at this point...  but it's kind of nice.  I am more productive as I'm not interrupted as much.  There has been a little bit of resistance but most are happy to see the changes that are coming down the pipe. 

I have quite a bit of travel on the agenda for work too...  trips to Fort Worth and one to Wisconsin (in march... brrrrrrrr). 

Anyway...  I'll get those pictures downloaded... I promise.  :)  But for now... life is good.  I like my new normal. 

Thursday, January 9, 2014

The Cruise

Embarkation lunch in the dining room. 
First Formal night in the show lounge
Grand Turk
Pinnacle Grill
San Juan, Puerto Rico
St. Maarten
My office on occasion. 
Half Moon Cay
Always missing my kids. 
Always missing my sister.  Remembering her on the anniversary of her death. 
Getting to see my two other sisters after the cruise.  :)

It was a great vacation... very relaxing. 

Santa's Wonderland